Sunday, February 29, 2004
misha new album...releasing in march!!! woot!...sadly..end of march!!!
anyways...just finished watching kal ho na ho. i cried. such a nice movie. it shows u how much ppl are willing to do for the one they love. oh man.. so damn philosophical. i
love love.
im real sleepy now. morning got gp test. think i might ace it. the keyword here is might.
then after tt got trg. which turned out to be a friendly match with yuhua. lost 2-0. god are they fast.
then after tt got div 2 match. no other seniors cept me. i was the most senior there. best. anyways we won 2-1. just want to say tt ad is a champioN!!!
then went to eat with rely n su. then after tt go home. good day! hahahaha
by the way..i didnt eat the whole day :( till i went to eat with them. damn sad rite??
--insignificant lies--
12:18 am
Saturday, February 28, 2004
just felt the need to write all of a sudden.
me listening to misha- semoga abadi
and its amazing. i feel so smooth. her voice is so smooth. i love it a lot. yum.
im looking at her poster on my wall and i smile. the way she seems-so picture perfect. i can admire her from a far. and she would always seem so perfect to me. and this is me. loving someone who is not really mine to love. i am loving an idea. a perception. my perception. my ideal. but if my ideal were to be reality. i would want her to look like misha. ;)
and now the song has ended. and i feel a warmth deep inside. and it feels sweet. and it makes me high. and makes me float. as if i were flying. gliding across the blue sky. and my fingers were touching the cloud.
there is no love without poetry
--insignificant lies--
1:10 am
Thursday, February 26, 2004
grr...
supposed to go watch somthing's gotta give with fiah n agnes but the both of them ah..play me out sia.. afiah never bring money. then agnes now dun wanna go. boring nyer.
potong steam betul la.
--insignificant lies--
1:33 pm
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
dear...i fear we're facing a problem. u love me no longer...i know there is nothing that i can do to make u stay.
dunno why but suddenly hummed tt to myself. im now in the comp lab. in a few mins i'll be going on my stupid National Education Trip. going chinatown to see temples. wat the f??? god knows why im going. cant blieve im missing trg for all this shit.
kembalilah kepadaku..
selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka
ikatan kita berdua
sayangilah diri ini
belailah jiwa yang sepi
kelayuan
--insignificant lies--
2:02 pm
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
i was thinking of nothing else,
but words.
how to convey what to say,
when u never passed the test;
when all you can do
is nothing
compared to what you should do;
to what you should be able to?
and yet you stand still
at a crossroad with yourself;
still unbale to fulfill
that destiny-
the one that they told you
"you could!"
and sometimes they pull u;
drown u with them
and u can't
utter a word of truth
nor ring out the thing to gain
but no one can tell you
to stop.
no! no!
you are a one man show.
may you live on
but pray tell,
when will you stop
holding yourself back?
--insignificant lies--
2:10 am
Monday, February 23, 2004
wah so long i never update. kk i give short loadown...
-fri-
met gene. sat at starbucks at sengkang. he's a nice guy. cute n all tt. met him for a shortwhile only.
go home watched APM. ate pizza.
APM..misha never show up. so sad. APM kinda sucked. cept shanty was waaaayyy cool...sad that hazrul didnt win anything. fuck ferhad. k!
-sat-
trg in the morning. then went out with gang minus one (den). i shall not say anything abt den cos later she say i bully her.
we went ac fun-o-rama. which was not fun at all. but watever. went there cos farah bought one tix.
we went there at 3. we came out at 330. bought two shakes. n one waffle. n guess who is the person we saw there...grrr... sick! afiah was like pulling me away la...running like mad. but he caught up to us n said hello to afiah. wat a loser. go n chase girls ard. tak tahu malu.
after fun-o-rama, we went town. went to eat at magic wok.
cant believe erra fazira n yusry were there too. but i only realised it like when they were leaving. way cool la. hahah...
after tt we went to eat some more at
gelare. which was nice. me n fiah shared one banana split basket. then after tt we all decided to
take neoprint. n it turned out really nice cos me fiah n farah were wearing white tops n agnes was wearing black top. at gelare met hidayah..n she tot we went for the hip hop contest cos we were all like dressed a like. i'll put up the neoprints here as soon as i got time to scan it. den... so sad lah u...never get to take with us... hahha..nvm..next time.
after take neoprint we were still amazed at out neoprints then we went lido. and we sat there awhile then we went home cept fiah who didnt feel like going home n stayed on to meet her frens. reached home abt 9.
-sun-
had tuition at priyaas place in the aftnn. then went back to woodlands to meet khai. then walk walk. bought ourselves milkshake. then met my mom to buy printer ink. then my mom went work. n khai want to go orchard. then waited till my mum left. then we went up to the stn. then guess wat...my mom was still there. for gods sake!!!
so after tt we hid behind a wall. then after tt waited till my mom's train left. we planned to stop at somerset but ended up stopping at orchard.
so change of plans. we went to paragon first. stopped at mango n i saw this off cut woolen sweater thing. so nice. but so not feasible. then at paragon went to boardrider's club. n khai wanted to buy the earrrings. but we didnt know yet whether to or not. so we went to heeren. then at heeren we went to flash n splash. cldnt find the earrings there. n so we went to annex. at livia i saw this nice pencil box type thing. nice. but not big enuff to fit my discman. so maybe not.
then we went to mini toons there n bought gummies. nice. only cost me 1.60. after buying gummies stopped at flesh imp. its so guy stuff now. the girls stuff is still all the same. not tt nice. i must go papaya now or something. really need to go shopping!!! retail therapy!!!! farah!!! fiah!!!!
then after tt we went to paragon again. n khai finally bought the earrings. n then stopped by at popular. as usual i couldn't help myself but to buy two files. well they cost 35cents only. then after tt go home. tot i'd go home my way but in the end i went home her way la. im such a nice fren!
but anyways khai..it was really fun. n it was a sunday nite. haha...i reached home at 945 la. best. the atmosphere was good n it was really nice to be out there with my best fren n talk shit as usual. retail n soul therapy. you can get tt nowhere else. :D love u gurl...
and today.... hmm... wat did i do??
-mon-
first i wake up at 1130 thanks to rejab's sms. sick still. feel so feverish n tired. then i got changed n went to polyclinic. they tell me to come back at 145pm. so i went to sit at macs for an hour like tt. n i just did nothing there la..read teens mag which they supply there. n ate mcnuggets meal. thank goodness down there got coupons. so then went back to polyclinic n wait long a bit..but went time to queue to see doc n get medcine damn fast la. way cool...
then reach home at 3. watched tv. read manja.
love misha. then now im here typing n doing research for malay project. n thinking abt ways to save money n dividing my expenses. n reading catalog. thinking of new things to buy. for self. retail therapy. more n more.
love myself.
--insignificant lies--
5:03 pm
Thursday, February 19, 2004
today...interesting n happening morning...
first i got pissed abt the APM thing. then after tt i got to mrt stn already...then i realise i forgot my wallet. so go to go freaking back. then reach home...got cab. its the same uncle..the one with the daughters.haha.. funny sia. then nearing sch there got jam. cos they closed off one side of the road. so duh! late liaoz..
then when i got out of taxi..
heard agnes call me..haha.. joke sia!!! then of all the ppl to come next...
afiah popped out from her mom's car... waliu..like plan sia...divino karma!! haha.. too bad farah n den not there...cos after tt
we went for breakfast. cos me n fiah cannot get caught already. or not..sure yeoman.
then
at macs, we all bought pancakes meal...good stuff i tell u..then we talk abt shit..then agnes keep on saying she sad..she sad..afiah missing her sis..me pissed off abt APM still..misha..haiz..
then after tt ard 845 we walk back to sch... then we tot of the plan liaoz...agnes will go in first..to check if the coast is clear... then me n afiah sat outside at the bridge the stairs there. then agnes msg say the coast is clear. haha..then me n afiah walk in..in single file..then just walk straight all the way....haha...then we went reading room..n talk talk...talk crap as always la..
then bell ring...then i went comp lab..afiah go maths class. then apparently afiah no maths class so she came to comp lab. then we see ppl's blog. cool stuff.. haha.. afiah is cool! haha...
anyways....tmr me meeting gene...shld be interesting..haha..he is chinese!! haha...den..got chinese guy!!! haha...
so now im the only unattached affina..disturbing...
haha..nvm..the gang still got single peepz...
!!!
--insignificant lies--
11:34 pm
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
today amazing miracle of god..hehe...
me,leila and kei-la(hehehehe) walked out of sch at 1130am. hehe.. nobody read this n spread it around! understand???
anyways..we went to play pool for almost two hrs. not bad la they all. can learn quite fast. cept for leila cos she lefthander so a bit the leceh. the funniest thing is tt she write with her right hand. wat a loser. hehe..but cannot say much la..me also ambidextrous.
then after play pool we go PS..go kopitiam. i bought strawberry kisses which is actually just ice with some strawberry sorbet thing n strawberry icecream. below the ice...its all the ice kachang ingredients. keila bought peach tower which is vanilla ice cream with peach toppings. n leila the cheapo bough chng tng. after tt i was still hungry again! anyways then i went to carrefour n got myself a sausage bun and accidentally bought chiffon cake instead of being hardworking and making brownies for family day. hehhe...the chiffon cake costs two bucks k! smart rite??
then after tt i ditched them. well not really. they had to go for the serangoon home center meetg thing. so i took train with them to serangoon. then i took it the rest to sengkang and then i took 161 home. so nice of me. ;) then the two of them damn funny la...they stand outside the train to wait for my train to go on moving. then they act like they damn sad to leave me. then leila fake cry!! haha..nonsense. love them both!!! so nonsense.
then go home...wah best...i watched tv from like 5pm till like 10pm. n then i go online. n i started searching for misha omar pics. was bored. yeah..anyways me putting up this misha poster i found in the mag on my wall. hope my mom dun faint. she dun like misha all tt much. she only like the siti nurhaliza kind. *pukes* no offence to siti. but i like bitchy gurls. which kind explains certain things..hehehehe...
and now here i am. anyways want to show u some misha pics so i put the links beside there ah.
rite..ciaoz.
--insignificant lies--
12:07 am
Monday, February 16, 2004
things to do tonite:
1. bio transport in mammals tutorial
2. check which notes are empty
3. read a bit of organic chem
--insignificant lies--
8:42 pm
halloo... i am so not feeling well today. well i mean now esp. cos my bloody cough is giving me a throat itch..n cos i cldn't really talk properly the whole of today. my voice sounds funny. its not tt sexy anymore. its more like screechy and alien like. it wavers. it sucks.
and cos i've been coughing so much and so hard im having a splitting headache. oh well.
anyways i think i should sleep soon. not sleepy actually. watever.
things i need to do with my life:
1. start working (when will that ever happen?? but oh god..seriously it has to happen!!!)
2. clear up the back lock work. yes sir!
3. start saving some money
4. tell priyaa about tuition prob
5. get healthy
6. take care of my voice
7. plan wat exactly i wanna do in uni
8. find some love
9. have a healthy internet life(meaning to not be online so much)
10. eat healthy..(stop eating oily junk fattening shit crap u idiot!!!!)
things to do immediately:
1. get files
2. pay fund
3. buy brownie mix
4. cut hair
by the way...i change my song again!! hahahaha..so all those who didnt get to hear the prev one..too bad lor..haha..
the song i put is a tribute to a beautiful woman...
Misha Omar...
she's really really beautiful...and her voice is like sweet sweet honey...and it amazes and inspires me everyday..and to me she is perfect. a completely perfect woman. amazing.amazing grace. and she seems so nochalant. and her eyes plays tricks on you. and her voice it calls out to you like a beacon. in desire. in hope. in love. so there it is..bunga-bunga cinta.
*leaves of love*
--insignificant lies--
1:35 am
Sunday, February 15, 2004
kkk..i did put a song..haha.. its lipgloss n letdown by static lullaby. great song. dont mind the screaming. hehe.
--insignificant lies--
5:14 pm
hey...i listening to fana's blog the song..damn nice..haha..madonna..nice song fana!! keep it there. maybe i shld put song on my comp also..not a bad idea. but i think i shld put a player here la..tapi kan..player i tak suka la...cos i got no more space down here already to put a player. hmm..nvm la.. another time.. heehee...
i love my white cat. hehe.. meow meow.. bite me..prr... hehehehe..
dah mabuk dah. minta maaf. ;)
--insignificant lies--
4:21 pm
Saturday, February 14, 2004
vday= pathetic. grr. watever.
--insignificant lies--
11:12 pm
Friday, February 13, 2004
ok i really feel like bloggin now.
k so today was like pre-vday celeb in my sch. i got one lolly from agnes. thanks. and one red rose from den. thanks! love u guys. made my day to know tt got someone thinking of me. but still i dunno wat the fuss is?? the bloody thing is TMR!!! silly ppl! hahaha...
anyways den's rose is dying. i tried to save it but...its life span is too short. it couldnt make it. oh well.. its a nice deep red now. tmr i gonna soak it in milk and make potpourri..hehe...
after sch i went to MGS to go meet Mrs Chand. there was this like qNa sharing session about writing with some of the MGS girls...mrs yap was holding it la..pretty interesting..but seng teck was falling asleep anyways..haha..
so a good advise from mrs chand..
if you want to b a writer you have to persevere... so...yes! i shall persevere. :) mrs chand is way cool. did a lot of observations on her. i guess that's wat writers do- take note of every singel detail. mrs chand has a nice smile. sweet. she must have been very pretty when she was younger. a very nice greta garbo look alike. :)
anyways mrs chand says wat i handed in to her was fine. fine?? ok. if she says so. to me a bit shallow. but alright. i'll persevere and give it a go. yeah!
well peepz...take care. i really wanted to meet j they all..but..haiz.. nvm.. missing u guys man!!
--insignificant lies--
8:44 pm
now is malay but im too slack to get up..haha.. cant be bothered... so i shall take my time...heehe.. anyways dun want to bump with a cheong. yah. difficult. haiz..kk..nvm.. hehee....
--insignificant lies--
1:02 pm
Thursday, February 12, 2004
i'm going mad!
yesh i am!
the trouble with love is it can tear u up inside..make ur heart believe a lie...
anyways nothing much happened today. felt really elevated though. all those meds la~!! damn wat..haha.. stupid...
n now i dun feel like talking to anyone on MSN. best. haha.. evil..
--insignificant lies--
11:47 pm
hi
too many probs now.
first--- money probs. i got no money to pay for my tuition. i pity my mom. and i know its my fault. so i need a job. fuck my father. he is a kuniang. leave his children penniless. fuck him.
second---- where to find job?? tuition??
ppl i saw yest:
1. mrs lai aka ms dorcas cheang
2. hadri the asshole bastard kanina ball-less liar
ppl i tot i saw yest:
1. lin
ppl i really wish i saw yest:
1. lin
i really thought it was her. priyaa was walking me back to redhill. then there was this woman sitting at the redhill the stones there..u know..tt place ..near the shops.. yah..then she was wearing tudung. n she keep on looking at us. priyaa brought my attn to her. then she said" is it miss azlin?" and i was like... "can't be" but she kept on looking at us. but when we came nearer it wasnt. but sure as hell looked like her. n the lady was actually looking at ther husband behind us who was pushing a pram with her child in it. best. lucky we never waved.
lin, missing u always. true love lasts a lifetime.
haiz.
--insignificant lies--
9:47 am
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
THIS IS A DAMN SWEET SONG!!!!
Selagi Ada... (Cinta)
Telah kulakukan semuanya kasih
Telah kukorbankan segalanya
Namun ku sendiri tak pernah mengerti
Apa yang engkau fikirkan
Apa yang engkau inginkan
Ku tahu kau tak pernah setia (kasih)
Ku tahu diriku tak bererti
Namun ku sendiri tak pernah mengerti
Apa yang engkau fikirkan
Apa yang engkau inginkan
Selagi ada cinta di hatiku
Selagi ada rindu yang membara
Selagi air mata ini mengalir
Kau tetap di hati ini
Cintamu tetap di hati
Selagi ku mampu bertahan kekasih
Jangan sampai cinta tiada lagi
Jika memang cinta tiada lagi (kasih)
Tinggalkan aku sendiri...
Tinggalkan cintamu kasih...
Selagi ada cinta di hatiku
Selagi ada rindu yang membara
Selagi ku mampu bertahan kasih
Ku terima segalanya
Walau hatiku merana...
--insignificant lies--
12:05 am
Saturday, February 07, 2004
waliu!!!!
today we had match with tpjc. we won 2-0. but somewhere in the middle den got hit in the face. n her lips started bleeding. had to get 5 stitches sia!!! i was so worried la.. when she kena i was like
"DEN!!!!" then after tt i ran to her...then at first she cover her mouth there.. then when i saw her mouth.. i was just like
"SHE"S BLEEDING!!!"...now when i think abt it..stupid sia wat i said.. like DUH! she was bleeding! oh god...was really scared. felt like crying suddenly cos i thought it was really serious..n i heard her crying out in pain. scary sia. damn scary.
don't scare me again like that DEN!!!!
in the end we all didnt go to farah's bbq thing... too sad abt den. so inappropriate. tho well..actually den's injury is not tt bad la..haha... anyways we went to eat at cahaya instead..the usual la.. me.agnes,fiah and farah only. so weird like tt. then the whole time the whole gang was like..."
i miss den"yah....
then after tt we sat at lido. wanted to go visit den but she was at her grans place. oh well.. we had fun still at lido.. think we sat there from like 330 till like 630. i bought filet(despite having eaten just b4) n fiah bought ice cream..farah bought taco...n agnes ate nothing. then we share drink. n later after tt we bought popcorn. then we played this funny game..haha...i created it... at first agnes took photo of our things...tt koosh smiley face thing..yah...then i was like stacking my one on top of her one..then i was trying to blow on it..then we started this blowing competition to see who can knock it down.. only fiah n farah can knock it down...hahah..me n agnes damn loser..then we tried to make it more challenging la...knock tt one thing down... then agnes one..the green one...so easy to knock down la..but once again me n agnes unable to...haha..then we decided to try it with the pink one...then all also cant make it..then we tried to use timing la..ended up we all laugh n laugh n laugh..n laugh n laugh n laugh..hahhahahahhahahah i still cant stop laughing now..damn funny...
haha...ppl started looking la..but anyways after tt farah had to go meet her frens at heeren so we follow her..then after tt we all went back la..haha.. a good day man..damn funny..
oh n i saw renu today.. so nice.. :)
hahahhahahahah..
funny sia the game we had...
n agnes n farah n fiah..still havent pass with the handshake...agnes esp...
--insignificant lies--
9:47 pm
Friday, February 06, 2004
i want cat!!! i wonder how i am gonna pull it off without letting my mom get pissed
scared tt this sun when firdaus comes with the cat mom will freak out and ask him to take it back.
guess i shld warn her first. but i scared she will freak out also. hahahaha...
oh well...watever it is... i think it should be ok la...
i just want cat...really really want it... badly want a cat. yah..im super excited. wonder if my sister is as super excited as me. maybe not...
if fir brings the cat on sun..who gonna take care of it on mon..haiyoh..so leceh... maybe i shld go find it a box now already. so difficult. haiz... wish me luckz...
--insignificant lies--
12:36 pm
Thursday, February 05, 2004
hey
im taking a break. ms soh loves me alot...haha...i got good on my paper twice!!!!
heehee...
i think ms soh is hot. haha..well to me anyways.i guess like wat leila say..she is so quirky that she becomes cute. hahhahah...
yesh well..
i love misha omar!!!
soso the muchies.
wat the hell am i talking about also i dunno. but im like watever k..heehee... :) smilies. more smilies all around.
why am i happy?? i dunno. today i gonna go home str8!!! yeaH!
after this got time practice. so not in the mood.grr. yucks.
--insignificant lies--
10:26 am
hello...
dunno wat to say. suddenly sad. thinking of wat saiful said. grr.
oh well..
i miss holding someone in my arms. how i long for that..
oh well...
kk..let me write down some poems i wrote today..or else i will lose them...
poem 1
in the darkness
i lay asleep
but yet i hear
the sounds of scratching
of thumping
in my ears
they call to me
like a serenading song
hypnotic in its grip
and hold you in for long
i am taken in
trapped in a shell
stuck in its pits
in this i dwell
to be an escapist
and run in circles
set forth to hide
away from the aged
power on my side
poem 2
we play a game of hide and seek
we hide from truth
but yet we seek it out
can we handle the burden of heavy fruits?
will our feet wobble jelly-like?
we look in mirrors
reflecting our own perceptions
blinded by our fears
and not wanting to hear critic's words
in the darkness then we lay
and we keep silent
never shouting out
never to come out.
--insignificant lies--
12:50 am
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
hey..
today after sch went out to town with kei and leila.. n we had a nice time as always. ended up at kino after eating at cahaya. i bought meira chand's book. it seems nice so far. i read it on the bus. but was too sleepy so i stopped. been lazing ard the whole day after i got back. such a pig i swear!
anyways just now i watched six days seven nights yeah.. n its nice n all but a bit the fake cos we all know anne heche is les n so its like somehow i know she not enjoying kissing harisson ford n all. but not tt i mind la..anne heche is cute. cute cute. hahha.. god ferri!! really...so much for reforming!!!
i guess its difficult its a battle btw myself n myself. n its hard. i still feel a certain way but i just wished it would stop. cos if it did..then life would be much easier. really it will. tts what i belief anyways. i want things simple. no complications tt are not worth it.
oh well..
but anne heche. wonder why she broke up with ellen?? they quite cute together n all.. cos they are two short haired blondies. heehee..
--insignificant lies--
12:36 am
Monday, February 02, 2004
normala is hot!
hhahaha...she is old enuff to be my mother but i dun care...still think she is so hot!!!
hahahahaha... love her hair esp. make me swoon.
reminded me so much of lin when normala was wearing her tudung. waduh waduh. hotz.. panas.
i was like smiling thruout the whole movie. n she has this really sweet smile.
man im gushing.
so much for reforming. haha..nvm.not wrong to have crush on idols. she's my idola!
when im tt age i want to be tt good looking. swoonz!
hahhaha...man man man...
oh no! maybe i have a tudung fetish?? grr...*shudders*
but no la..cant be. i like normala w/o tudung. okok...so im safe! yay!
hahah...oh n im not meeting feli after all.she end work to late. oh well. nvm.
*normala is hot!*
--insignificant lies--
11:43 pm
hey
im gonna watch idola in a minute.
im such a looksist but who cares. chatted with some ppl today. cool. but some ppl are just so possesive.
anyways tmr i might be meeting feli. yay! miss that girl!
we are both kinda sorrowful abt ppl. but i think she is more than me. cos for me justice has been served. n for her..she just miss him. poor girl. nvm..tmr i shall cheer her up. yay!
*misha freak*
i want to name my kid misha.
--insignificant lies--
9:24 pm
